Like so many others, I have struggled with weight and body image my entire life. I was a chubby kid, a fat teenager, and a nearly obese young adult.
I can’t remember a time in my life when I wasn’t aware that I was heavy. I remember a specific event when I was around 4 years old; a friend of my Mom’s was picking up the kids and tossing them (lightly) onto a king sized water bed. I told him that I couldn’t do it because I was too heavy and he wouldn’t be able to lift me. I really believed that. As a kid and teenager, the only thing that kept me from being obese was how active I was–all of the sports I played. It was always a source of bitterness for me, the fact that I was so active, I was nearly always on a diet, and I was still heavy. Not fair!
Then, when I was 23 years old, I figured it out. At least, I guess I did. I lost 60 pounds by doing not much more than I had done my entire life. The only difference was that I was working out in a gym instead of playing and training for organized sports. Also, I wasn’t dieting. You heard me: no diet. I ate what I wanted.
Fast forward 10 years, and I have a husband, 2 daughters, 2 golden retrievers, and an extra 20 pounds to keep me company. I’ve spent the better part of the past year trying to get the same results that I got ten years ago. I’ve been faithfully working out five days a week and cutting down my portions but, this time, I’ve only managed to lose and keep off five pounds. What’s different? I’ve decided to try and figure that out by trying new things. New workouts, find new “fit meals” that a person might actually want to eat, that sort of thing, and I’m going to share my results (or lack thereof) with all of you.
My goal? To lose some weight, get healthy, and do it all while maintaining a positive body image. I do not believe in body shaming, and I don’t want my kids to see me do that to myself. Every other week I’ll share my workouts, my recipes, my successes and failures, what works and what doesn’t and, if all goes well, some before and after pictures!